January 1st, 2011- If Only I Knew
At 12:05 AM this first morning of the new year we lost our oldest daughter, Nicole Monique Taylor to a tragic car accident. She was only 27 years old and in the prime of her life. She worked for Alaska Airlines and was also attending Washington State University as a full time online student. She was a mother to our grandson Darius Ernie Jay Fields (7), She loved playing volleyball and taking he son to other sporting events. She had a beautiful heart and spirit. As I sit here this evening and can barely muster the effort to type these words. I cannot believe that I’m never going to see my big girl again.
The only thing keeping me sane right now is the fact that I know that she is with the Lord and that the scripture says he will never leave us or forsake us.
RIP dearest Nicole, we love you and you will remain in our hearts and minds forever.
Dear friends, please hold, hug and kiss your loved ones everyday and every time they walk out that door.
IF ONLY I KNEW….
If I knew it would be the last time that I’d see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss and call you back for one more.
If I knew it would be the last time I’d hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word, so I could play them back day after day.
If I knew it would be the last time, I could spare an extra minute or two
to stop and say “I love you,” instead of assuming, you would know I do.
If I knew it would be the last time I would be there to share your day,
well I’m sure you’ll have so many more, so I can let just this one slip away.
For surely there’s always tomorrow to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance to make everything right.
There will always be another day to say our “I love you’s”,
And certainly there’s another chance to say our “Anything I can do’s?”
But just in case I might be wrong, and today is all I get,
I’d like to say how much I love you and I hope we never forget,
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone, young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance you get to hold your loved one tight.
So if you’re waiting for tomorrow, why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes, you’ll surely regret the day…
That you didn’t take that extra time for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone, what could be their one last wish.
So hold your loved ones close today, whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them and that you’ll always hold them dear.
Take time to say “I’m sorry,” “please forgive me,” “thank you” or “it’s okay”.
And if tomorrow never comes, you’ll have no regrets about today.
Nothing is worse than the wonder, IF ONLY I HAD KNOWN!